Sunday, September 6, 2009

What Lies Beneath

Recently, I have been contemplating the nature of belief. And through my studies and experiences I have come to understand that there are two basic kinds of belief.

There is the belief that something is true - what might be called intellectual assent.

There is also the belief in someone – what might be called faith.

It has really been hitting home lately that intellectual assent to particular ideas and concepts is not very helpful in getting what we want. In the mind, this kind of belief can create a sense of power and control. Actually it ultimately manifests itself as the opposite of power and in various forms and structures that are completely out of control.

Real power comes from believing in someone. There are many persons that are worth believing in. In this post, I’ll focus on two that you cannot afford not to believe in.

The First Person is God - the Divine Source - whatever you want to call the Consciousness Who Has Made Everything Possible. Believing in this Person (or these Persons as you may be so inclined) is so critical to experiencing success and fulfillment in our existence. Without believing in this One, we have no firm foundation to stand upon. Without faith in the Source,everything becomes random and meaningless except to the extent that we create games and stories that have to do with the accumulation of stuff that the bio-body’s senses can register easily and consciously. Without God, addiction is an acceptable way of being since there is nothing behind, above, or under what our bio-body’s sensory systems can detect.

The Second Person to believe in is ourselves. Believing in this person flows logically from belief in the First Person. But emotionally, at least for me, this has been a tougher one to accept and experience. Even though I trust that God creates everything good, and even as I can intellectually agree that God made me without any fundamental flaws or defects, honestly, this is not how I have viewed myself for most of my life up to this point.

For as long as I can remember, I have thought that I was this really horrible, terrible person. I was always looking to get caught for doing something wrong. I think this goes back to early experiences where I did something that others in my world appeared to interpret as being out of harmony with their desires. In those moments I decided to trust the apparent opinions of others (and my interpretations of those apparent opinions) regarding my actions. I even went so far as to take the extra step of making the assumption that because I had done something that did not align with another’s desires, then I must be a bad person myself. I know this makes no sense logically. I made a fundamental error in logic every time I took other people’s apparently negative attitudes toward my behavior and then jumped to conclusions that those attitudes had something to do with my inherent beingness. I chose to believe that there must be something inherently wrong with me as a person. Not a very empowering choice, I must admit.

For me these kinds of energy currents have been running so deep that I have not been very aware of them for the most part. It was only recently that I realized that I had to let these limiting patterns of thought and feeling go if I was to have a chance at helping people in the ways that I desired to be of service. Part of the reason I’m writing this now is because I hope that my sharing some of these discoveries may help you on your journey.

None of us wants to think we are evil or bad people. We all want so badly to be good and to do what’s right. But many of us have accepted stories and interpretations that go against the truth of our inherent goodness and innocence. We have bought into lies and even created lies that have “helped” us “make sense” of our experiences.

Now is a perfect time to release these limiting ideas about who we really are. Now is a perfect time to discover and release the false ideas that have us stuck in lives that are less than what our souls long to experience. Now is the time to step into the truth of who we really are as wondrous works of a wondrous Creative Being.

The facades we have created to shield us from judgment and criticism are defenses for things about ourselves that are not even true! We try to pretend and protect ourselves from people discovering the “truth” about us, when the very truth we are trying to hide is a lie to begin with! It’s really insane when you think about it.

I’m discovering that believing in myself means that I am being called to believe in the One who made me. It also means that I am being called to get underneath all of the stuff that would have me think that I am really anything less than glorious and amazing. Remember, I created this stuff to generate a sense of consistency and predictability within my interpretation of my experiences. These feelings and ideas are simply patterns of energy, not facts, and definitely not the creations of the Divine Source in Whom I believe!

Should you embark upon a similar mission to uncover your true self, I must warn you that it is often not a pleasant process. We are used to our junk and baggage. It’s familiar. It’s comfortable because we are accustomed to the pain and suffering it beings to us over and over again. It keeps us in crappy little boxes that, while confining, are also comforting because they give us a false sense of control over our worlds. The truth is that as long as this mostly unconscious crap is running the show, we are slaves to it, and suffocating underneath it, whether we realize it or not.

Let it go. Let it go. Let it go! For your sake, for my sake, for the sake of all that lives. Be who you really are - which is much less (of the limiting stuff) and much more (of the limitless stuff) than you can imagine right now. Know that there are a whole bunch of us waking up from our individual and collective nightmares. Don’t be left out when the really cool stuff starts happening! Waking up is worth every challenge that goes with it.

You are magnificent. You are amazing. You are here to give much more than you know. There is only one of you, a unique expression of the Glorious Source of Being. Under all of the stuff that’s got you stuck, is a being of light and love. With the Divine Source as the ground beneath our feet and the sun in our sky, there is no good thing that cannot be accomplished. There is no wonder that cannot be beheld. And a huge part of what makes life wonderful is the unfolding realization of who we really are as beings of limitless potential. We are people made of and for and to love. Eventually we will all know it and live it. Let’s discover it together and help each other to see what lies buried beneath the less-than-awesome!*

*In case you think you need to clear up all of your mess to be of service or to make a difference in this world. Let it go. It is in dedicating yourself to be of as much service as you can be that you will be able to let go of a lot of this stuff. Dedication is the goal, not perfection! (My Life Coach, Lisa Spahr, reminded me of this truth very recently and it has helped me immensely.) I’m working on this myself. - Posted by Bill Frase

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